October 26, 2005

Baby David Died. He was 6 months old.

I had so much grief and sadness that I boxed away from a loss I had in January of that same year. It seemed to all come out. I seemed to be shattering all my relationships (the few that I had/have) and I may still be doing that. But I try to explain to those people what I’m going through and I don’t mean to take any angry out on them.

I’ll share the January story sometime later. People that know me know the story and it’s something I don’t really like playing through my mind. It hurts that same as the day it happened. I haven’t figured out why it happened but when David died it just made my mind wonder why these things happen even more.